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Posted on 2005.10.02 at 01:07
Current Mood: okayokay
So, those of you who actually read this thing have probably been wondering what I've been up to. And, in all honesty, the answer is nothing exciting.

I've done a few fun things since I last updated. I went down to Dayton over Labor Day weekend and got to see a lot of my favorite people. The weekend before that I went to Columbus for Jackie's bachelorette party and got to see some other fun people. And a few weekends after Dayton I went to House of Blues in Cleveland for my sister's, Carly's, and Jenny's birthdays. That wasn't as fun as it could have been because people (including our waiter) were in bad moods, but oh well.

Well, I guess that's about it. My life isn't as boring as it seems, it's just that I guess I don't really do much that's "big." I'm having fun hanging out here in Medina, though. (Although, I still can't decide if I want to stay in Medina or move to a bigger, more exciting city, like D.C. or New York. I love Medina but I've always been drawn to big cities and I'm afraid I'll regret it later if I never try living in one. Argh...) Anyway, that's an issue for another day.

Alright, I guess that's it for now. If you want to give me a really high-paying job at which I would only have to work from noon until 5:00, let me know!

Memories of Us

Posted on 2005.07.16 at 23:42
Current Mood: goodgood
I have a short attention span, so I have a new song obsession.

Making Memories Of Us by Keith Urban

I'm gonna be here for you baby;
I'll be a man of my word,
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard.
I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms,
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm.

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you.
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.

I wanna honor your mother;
I wanna learn from your pa;
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw.
I wanna stand out in a crowd for you,
A man among men;
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been.

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you.
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way.

I'm gonna be here for you from now on,
This you know somehow.
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now.
And I'm gonna make you a promise,
If there's life after this,
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss.

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you.
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us.
I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you.
And I'll win your trust making memories of us.

Anyway, other than listening to music, I have done a few things this summer. I've been to a few fun graduation parties and I got to see Megan, Melissa, and Geenae. I always love seeing people from school, so seeing each of those three was exciting! Geenae actually came and stayed with us for a weekend, so I was happy to see a lot of her.

Other than that, my daily life consists of watching way too much tv. On the weekends, I generally do something random (but fun) with Kelly, Carly, Scott, Jenny, Phil, Joy, or some combination of the above. (Mary, Chrystal, Julia, Sara, Heidi, Sandy, and some others occasionally join us also.)

I've seen a lot of movies, too. My next big one is Wedding Crashers (on Monday)! I'm very excited to see that one! I'll also be going to Art in the Park tomorrow, (well, today), so I have some semi-exciting things to do the next few days.

Even though I've been keeping relatively busy, when the rest of the world is working, I've been thinking A LOT. And the only conclusion I've come to is that life is confusing. I don't really know what I want to do with the rest of my life or what I want to do about some specific situations. So, I'm trying to figure all of that out! If anyone wants to say, tell me what I should do for the next say...60 years or so, let me know!

Even if you don't want to tell me what to do, give me a call, especially if you are in Cleveland or Akron! I still miss (almost) everyone!

Summertime (and the Livin' is Easy)

Posted on 2005.06.14 at 00:23
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
Wow, I'm quoting songs from Porgy and Bess. I am officially a nerd.

Anyway, my life has been OK this summer. People (in general and a few specifically) confuse me, but other than that, things are good. I get bored kind of often, but I get to do some fun things, particularly on weekends.

I went to Rascal Flatts last night and have just hung out/gone to dinner/gone to bars a bit. Nothing too eventful, but it's been fun.

If you want to know more, im or call me sometime! (Or if you're in Cleveland/Akron and you want to hang out. I miss Dayton people.)


Posted on 2005.05.27 at 02:04
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
This song is currently my obsession, so I thought I'd share the lyrics:

Breathe (2 am) by Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season."
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes,
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Whoa breathe, just breathe.

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss.
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Whoa breathe, just breathe

"There's a light at each end of this tunnel," you shout
'Cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out.
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song.
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
Inside of me, threatening the life they belong to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
'Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button now,
Sing it if you understand.
And breathe, just breathe,
Whoa breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

Yep, that's it. I don't know why I like it so much, I just do.

And that's about all that's going on in my life. I did have an eventful weekend last weekend, though. Hopefully this one will be just as eventful. If it's not, I will be super-upset. I've been in a weird, very unhappy mood as it is. I hate it because there are people I can talk to about it, but no one really understands because it's not something you can understand unless you've felt this way before, which only perpetuates the feelings of sadness and loneliness.

Anyway, I'm rambling and it's not helping, so I guess I'll get going.

I was SO born in June!

Posted on 2005.05.20 at 02:15
Current Mood: boredbored
Or at least I should have been.

Your True Birth Month Is June









Easily hurt

Active mind

Easily bored


Loves to joke

Tends to delay


Brand conscious

Loves to dress up

Having lots of ideas

Good debating skills

Funny and humorous

Thinks far with vision

Prone to getting colds

Polite and soft-spoken

Able to show character

Seldom show emotions

Knows how to make friends

Easily influenced by kindness

Takes time to recover when hurt

Choosy and always wants the best

Those who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

What's Your True Birth Month?

Back in Medina

Posted on 2005.05.18 at 01:08
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Well, I'm officially a college graduate now. It feels weird, but it hasn't completely hit me yet.

Daytona was a blast. So much fun.

However, me being me, the entire time I was there I was thinking and analyzing, mostly just because that's what I do. Actually, I gave myself a little bit of a break while I was there and didn't analyze quite as much, but since I've been back I think my brain has been working overtime to make up for lost time.

The problem is that even with all of the thinking I've been doing I still can't figure anything out. It's just really frustrating. And I think about how I'm guarded and don't show any emotions, but I'm just not sure why. And I hate that. I think about how I've changed, too. Somewhat for the good, somewhat for bad. I guess I just used to be happier. But, maybe I was a little too happy because I never took anything seriously. However, I still really don't take some things as seriously as I should. I just don't know. I thought maybe writing my thoughts down would help me sort them out, but it really hasn't.

Although, in Daytona I did realize that some of my eccentricities are actually good. For example, I always thought it was weird that I sometimes prefer to do things on my own. Don't get me wrong, I like my friends and all and I love doing things with them most of the time, I just need more alone time than most. And I always thought this was strange, that it someone made me socially weird. However, I realized that this can also mean I'm independent. I don't need to be with someone to go out to eat or go to the movies because I enjoy my own company and my own thoughts.

Alright, I'm rambling, so I'm going to get going. However, if someone wants to listen to me ramble on sometime, let me know, because I do have a lot of thoughts going through my head at pretty much all times, but I'm typically pretty apprehensive about sharing them.

I'm Graduating

Posted on 2005.04.19 at 11:22
Current Mood: pensivepensive
It literally JUST hit me that I'm graduating soon. I mean, I've known for awhile (obviously), but strange things trigger emotions in me and it's just fully emotionally hit me that I have less than a month left at UD.

My shower triggered it. I glanced over while I was in the shower and saw the million different shampoos, conditioners, scrubs, etc. And I thought that that shelf was what I now pictured when I thought of a shower. And soon it wouldn't be. And it never would be again. It's hard to explain; it just triggered something in me.

And it made me think about how much I'm going to miss people. Last year the end of the year was sad for me because I would have to go four months without people. Four stupid months. Now, who knows when I'll see some of my best friends. I won't see Geenae in class everyday. Or Megan and Rachel around the house. I won't be able to have lunch with Erin or Malia anymore. Or go out to the bars with Katie. Or ride to meetings with Jackie.

It has totally hit me. I was so ready to graduate because I was annoyed with some people. Now, I realize that this is it. Sure, I'll see all of these people again. They're my good friends. But it won't be the same. And that makes me really sad.

I don't want to grow up. I'm not ready for the responsibility yet.

St. Patty's Day WOO-WOO

Posted on 2005.03.23 at 17:36
Current Mood: sickheadachy
I just thought I'd share with you how amazingly awesome my St. Patrick's Day way.

I'll start the night before with dinner. We had a Sigma Kappa family dinner, so Katie (my little), Malia (my grand-little), Andrea (my great-grand-little), and Lydia (Katie's sister) all went to Marion's. It was really yummy. And we had some great conversation, too. After dinner I caught the end of the Phi Alpha Delta meeting, then headed to the Pub with Geenae for Senior Night. When we got there, we met up with Cristen, Rachel, and Megan. It was fun, but I wasn't in the mood to drink a lot because I knew I had to get up the next morning. However, even though we knew we were getting up early to go to Tim's, Rachel and I decided to head to several stores looking for St. Patty's gear to wear. Unfortunately, neither Wal-Mart nor Meijer had anything. Imagine that, it was the day before St. Patrick's Day at midnight or so (so I guess it was actually technically St. Patrick's Day already) and no one had anything. I wonder why? We drove past a couple of other stores, but none of them were open. Sigh.

Rachel and I finally got home and went to sleep, in excited anticipation of the next day's events. (I am a BIG nerd.)

The next day we got up at 4:15 (yes, a.m.) to get ready to head to Tim's. We got there around 4:45. Malia, Rachel, Megan, Kristin (Malia's friend), and I all went. I was very proud of Megan for going out before teaching and very proud of the rest of us (particularly myself) just for getting up! We were the first people in line, so it didn't bother us that we had to wait outside until 5:30 to get in. When people walked up around 5:15 or so and saw how long the line had grown, we laughed at them. Wa ha ha ha (evil laugh). We finally got in, got our free t-shirts, danced for a bit, and enjoyed (well, enjoyed might the wrong word) a pitcher of green beer. We lost Megan and Kristin along the way, but Malia, Rachel, and I went to BW3. Malia and I didn't stay long because we went to Denny's. It was SO yummy. (Yummy seems to be a theme of this entry.) I got a Scrambler with ham in it AND ate a piece of bacon. My body LOVED the protein.

After Denny's I napped. Nothing too exciting there. After napping I went to class. Again, nothing too exciting there. Not surprisingly, very few people came to class, but eh, what can you do? Even though I went to class, I stayed fully decked out in my green sweat pants, my Old Navy St. Patty's Day shirt, my BW3 St. Patty's day shirt, my "Irish" Notre Dame sweatshirt (it's green), my buttons, my sparkly cheek tattoo from Geenae, my leis, my St. Patty's Day crown from Melissa and my beads, also from Melissa.

After class I continued my quest for St. Patrick's day clothing/accessories to wear, this time with Malia and Cindy. We went to Big Lots and Target, but didn't find much. However, I did find a green purse, which I promptly added to my green ensemble. After all of that searching we were famished, so we went to CiCi's, which was, of course, yummy. (I had to say it.) After dinner Meagan OCC braided my hair for me then I finished getting ready.

Then, Malia, Katie, Mike, Lydia, and I headed out AGAIN. (Malia and I had a lot of togetherness.) We went to the Fieldhouse, which, I'll admit, is kind of "the nerd bar" (as Katie says), but I think it's fun. We met up with Geenae at the Fieldhouse and eventually found our way to Tim's, where we saw Rachel. Malia, Rachel, and I OPENED AND CLOSED Tim's. We had fun times, fun times. After Tim's closed, Malia, Katie, Lydia, Mike, Geenae, and I went to Katie's and had some extra-yummy Domino's. Finally, I went home and went to bed.

I got a decent amount of sleep, then on Friday I had Subway with Malia, tied up a few odds and ends on campus, packed my car and headed home, where I am now for break.

That's all for now. My life at home is pretty boring, but if you want to know about it, im me and I'll let you know what I'm up to.

The Bride Gene

Posted on 2005.03.08 at 18:56
Current Mood: confusedconfused
OK, I have officially decided there's something wrong with me. (Other than the fact that my entire life contains references to Sex and the City.) I have decided that, like Carrie, I am missing "the bride gene." I mean, I realize I'm still young and don't need to be married anytime soon, but I'm not sure if I ever want to get married, which makes me drastically different from all of my friends. I just feel like there's something not right with me. I mean, sometimes I think I want kids and a family, but it's definitely not a huge priority in my life right now, which I feel just leaves me so disconnected from all of my friends. For example, Megan's journal entry the other day was about how she sees happy families and wants to have what they have. Well, it's not that I don't want to have a happy family, but sometimes when I see families I see a trap instead of happiness. I'm afraid if I get married or start a family anytime in the foreseeable future, I'll feel trapped. I like having my good friends and I'm really close to my parents and sister, so having people I'm close to in my life, including family, is clearly important for me, I just don't know if I want it for myself. Argh. I'm just so confused and I hate feeling like I'm somehow inadequate because I don't want the same things as everyone else. Someone give me all of the answers!

I'm that bored.

Posted on 2005.03.02 at 15:08
Current Mood: tiredtired
I'm bored. Really, really bored. I don't know why because I just got home from class. Normally I use this down time to veg out, nap, watch tv, eat the occasional snack, you know, normal college kid stuff. But today I have nothing to do. This is compounded by the fact that I can only do certain things on my computer because it basically sucks.

So, I was trying to think of what I could do. The first thing I thought of was to make a second, more difficult online quiz about myself. However, I thought that might make me seem as if I have no life (This entry of course, does not.) I am increasingly liking that idea, however, and will probably make online quiz #2 the next time I'm bored (aka tonight).

My second idea was to update my journal, but I realized that I don't have much to talk about. This made me think of when I was much, much younger, in kindergarten or so. At that time, I kept a "diary," which basically consisted of everything I did that day. I thought it would be fun to bore my loyal readers (all two of you) with a similar account of my day today.

So, here goes:

I had my alarm set for 5:00 (yes, a.m.) so I could get up, do my Pierce take home and do some errands and such. If you know me you clearly know that I did not get up and out of bed at 5:00. I did wake up and stay up about around 5:30. However, I didn't get out of bed until about 6:40. At this time, I began to write my Pierce midterm. Considering my time crunch and complete lack of concentration (no joke, I am now COMPLETELY convinced I have adult ADD), I think I did fairly well. I worked on my paper for a while, then around 9:00 or so I ate two leftover pieces of Papa John's pizza, and boy were they yummy. I also had a glass of Diet Coke. I continued to work on my midterm, lay around my bedroom, and watch tv, including The Today Show, The Jane Pauley Show, The View, the noon news, and two episodes of Ambush Makeover. During this time period I also talked to Geenae, Katie, and Megan H. online. Near the end of the second episode of Ambush Makeover (around 12:55) I emerged from my house for the first time today to bring a clothes basket in from my car and drive Geenae to Patterson Kennedy so she could tutor students in Spanish (or Hispanic students in English, or something like that, I'm not too sure). I decided to get Taco Bell, since I was already in the area (all of about 3 minutes away from my house). I got two chicken soft taco supremes and an extra large Dr. Pepper. I ate while watching Days of our Lives. Now, I have a little beef with Taco Bell. They have changed their chicken soft taco supremes, or the people working don't know how to make them. The one I had Monday was fine, but more often than not, they are a little off. For example, today my chicken was more spicy than usual and there seemed to be a salsa used rather than tomatoes, which irks me. However, the complete joy of consuming the GIANT Dr. Pepper far outweighed my disappointment with the chicken soft taco supremes. You have to understand my love affair with fountain Dr. Pepper, particularly from Taco Bell. I LOVE it. So much. It's out of control, it really is. Dr. Pepper in cans doesn't even begin to measure up to the loveliness of fountain Dr. Pepper. Anyway, moving on with my day. After eating I continued to work on my Pierce midterm while watching Days of our Lives. I finished around 2:00. I proceeded to print my wonderful paper. It printed in red. Thus is my life. I instant messaged Jackie, who said she would print it out for me and bring it to class. I couldn't access notes from the desktop icon or online. I couldn't draft an e-mail on yahoo. I tried logging off Novell and turning my computer on and off to no avail. God hates me. Finally, I realized you could send a file over instant messenger; I did so and Jackie printed it off for me. Success! At this point I realized it was already 2:45 and I wasn't yet dressed for the day. I threw on some clothes, sloppily pulled my hair back, hopped in to my car, and drove to class. Now, just so you know, I drove not because I'm lazy but because I'm realistic. It was already 2:55. Clearly, I wasn't going to make it to class on time had I tried to walk. My first class was Civil Liberties with Pierce. We turned in our midterms, discussed an art display, and went over several Supreme Court cases. I gave my usual input, but didn't say enough as to be annoying. After class I ran to the bookstore to buy a book that I have to write a paper about. The paper was due today at 4:30; I bought the book today at 4:25. However, I had already received an extension. I went to my second and final class of the day, Sociology of Women. Now, I normally like my women's studies classes, but if I have to hear this prof. blatantly bash Bush (wow, such good alliteration) one more time, I'm going to lose it. OK, not everyone has the same political views, but she's too extreme. And if you disagree with her, she gets really, really mad. Anyway, after some Bush bashing, we watched a video of nine women at some retreat (clearly taped in the 80's) talking about sex. It was actually quite amusing. After that, I walked to my car and drove home, bringing me to now.

Yep, that's my day in a nutshell. And I am very impressed if you're still reading.

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